Remember the revolution?

Remember causes

and affectations of effect on war

in cities now gone five-star?

 

Remember social action

sitting in smoke-filled rooms with Nescafe activists

and battered women with no teeth and less hope?

 

Remember death

when it belonged to rock stars

and people your mother knew?

 

Remember money

and how it wasn’t going to concern you

until you learnt the golden rule and its defensible limits?

 

And do you remember when the penny dropped

that the personal was the political

and you found out you had to change?

 

And you decided to forget the revolution?

God bleakly ignoring midwinter

Thanks to my UK blog pal Bryntin , I came across this delightful site, Terrible Poetry and have submitted this entry under the prompt ‘The Bleak Midwinter”.

The bleak midwinter arrived in

the middle of winter

and it was bleak.

Not moor bleak;

more bleak than that.

The wind was keen,

not in that American neat way

nor like mustard,

but sharp

and bleak

because it was midwinter.

I watched it being bleak midwinter

but I don’t think God did.

 

Reflections

This poem was included in the Indigomania anthology  published by https://truthserumpress.net/submissions/indigomania/ 

For you and I,

all things seem possible when we look across blue water

from the solid shore.

Peering towards the horizon,

we conspire towards a thousand buoyant courses.

Imagining a receding shore and a rising tide,

we do not weigh our stamina against the undertow

nor the wind strength against our craft;

we have enough gods

to warrant speculation.

But there are those who stand upon the solid shore

who are already at the end of this world

(and the next)

and our imagined journeys

are their fated drownings.

For them,

as they squint anxiously across the water

imagining a receding shore and a rising tide,

sailing into the blue

seems a truly godless journey.

So they sit watching us,

like hermit crabs,

waiting for us to set out,

assuming we are unlikely to return,

and picturing life inside our empty shells.

and picturing life inside our empty shells. 

Discovery Bay

The signs don’t work ‘cos the vandals took the handles

but the dune charioteers look after their own.

(It seems obscurity is merely an absence

of old fruit boxes and black paint.)

Along a graded road as straight as

the line on the forestry map,

we inspect the commercial pines at parade attention,

shoulders branch length apart.

Behind the parade ground is the local Flanders Field,

vast rolling hills dotted with the grave-stumps

of the Unknown Pine Trees

like a crew-cut magnified X 1000.

As the roller-coaster road begins to seem pointless

if not endless

we consider turning back but morbid curiosity drives us on

to the final crest

which lifts the descending gloom as if accompanied

by the opening chords of ‘Thus Spake Zarathustra’.

The hill top looks down in worship

on the virgin white altar of the tabernacle of the sea.

What first seems the surf-wash of a tidal wave

and then a snow-field surviving mid-summer

floats its nature slowly up the slopes, stating without arrogance, but,

in no uncertain terms,

‘These are the dunes of Discovery Bay

and they have more than your measure.’

The descent to the camp ground underlines the point.

Huddled in a three-tent enclave in a corner of the acre clearing,

their sand stallions muted and hobbled,

a group gathers in the late afternoon sun

to eat, drink and be unified and fortified

against the impending night.

A small hillock provides us with a measure of privacy and protection

from the insistent wind.

The tent pitched, a meal begun, a flagon opened.

A red-eyed knight in blue track-suit armour appears

to herald the despatching of two snakes in the vicinity.

His malevolence at our lack of vehicular sand-ripper is overcome

by the ethics of the Arthurian Card Table.

He exits, stage left, weaving,

as we blare the car radio

to scare away the mind snakes.

 

Pure escapism

I’ll bet she’s the type that

secretly reads door-stop Gothics

and would go for a square cleft jaw

and strong silence

if she could get them.

 

I’ll bet she’s the type that

secretly craves champagne while drafting shift rosters

and would go for remembered birthdays

and the smell of someone else’s cooking

if she could get them.

 

I’ll bet she’s the type that

secretly plans Pacific cruises to ideologically unsound ports

and would go for the ship

and the more sensitive members of the crew

if she could get them.

 

I’ll bet she’s the type that

secretly cries in all the parts old Hollywood intended

and would go for moustaches in white dinner jackets

(dying of unrequited love for torch singers with her looks)

if she could get them.

 

I’ll bet she’s the type that

could move brazenly to the tropics

to have leave without pain

and to find a warmer home for her secrets.

And she would get them.

Journey to an ever-changing sea

 

Each of us has travelled our own thirsty roads

to arrive, spray-faced, in our own seaside town

and walked our own historical lanes

in search of where we’ve been

so that we might know where we are going.

 

Can it be that the point of the journey

is the journey itself

and that our gravest danger

is arriving at each town

clinging to our memories of the last one?

 

At the breakwater of our learning,

we risk piling rock upon rock of yesterday,

building marinas of the mind

only to wake, breached,

by the tidal wave of tomorrow.

 

Let journeys bring us to the destinations they will

and let the waves deliver the tide unguarded

and we may yet see the purpose

of a pointless compass

in an ever-changing sea.

An uncommon future

This poem emerged from a conversation with some older relatives, where I talked about a vivid memory I had of a time we shared. They looked at me as if I’d arrived from another planet and told me none of the things I recalled ever happened.

Since the elders told me I only remember myths or dreams,

I’m not sure what past I share with you.

Often enough, until now,

I assumed a shared memory space,

a common time.

 

But if none of it was real

it means we can be anything,

now and in the future,

because the past is only what we make up

from hatred and desire.

 

The challenge now is to grab this thing,

this weightless freehold,

this rule change,

and enter this corridor of a thousand doors

and dare to knock on them all.

 

I want in my remaining years

to say the unsayable and deliver the unaddressed

and release the never-to-be,

before it can hide in safe corners,

waiting for something-to-turn-up.

 

Never again will I wrap my tiny fortune,

like a sixpence,

in the corner of my childhood hankie,

waiting for the tuck shop to open

and fulfil my desires.

 

For time is the only kingdom,

the power and the glory,

for ever and ever.

And if we have no common past

we must have an uncommon future.

 

 

Not shy but retiring

I don’t know how to be yet

when I am being nothing that I used to be

in my rapidly fading workaday world.

I don’t know how to speak the language

of nothing.

I don’t know how to begin and end the day at the same place

and radiate contentment.

I don’t know how to say the things

that a person who is alright would say.

I don’t know if I will go mad

and I don’t know how I will know when it starts,

if it starts,

or how it will end,

if it ends.

I don’t know how to say I am a writer when the words won’t,

when the words, when the ……….

I don’t know how to be nameless and hatless in a community,

to be, for all intents and purposes, irrelevant.

I don’t know how to be adrift without a network,

with no-one watching me for worrying signs

when I don’t even know what the signs are

to worry about.

I don’t yet know how to be still

long enough to be

nothing,

so I can decide

if there is any something to be.

And what if I want nothing

and to be

nothing?

Will there be anything left to love?

And will there be anything left of me to care?

Just lousy with charm

Written for the Carrot Ranch‘s 99-word Flash Fiction prompt for August 22, 2019, ‘Old world charm’.

In my old world, nits were removed with kerosene, visits to the spider infested outhouse were completed with newspaper squares, mothers bored into your ears to stop the potatoes growing in there and rubbed at your face with their spit on a handkerchief, fathers twisted your ears as they dragged you to the scene of your latest sin, teachers clipped your ears to instill learning and the local copper handled juvenile delinquency with the toe of his boot. Charming. I tell my grandson but he just scratches his head. Now where did I put that kerosene?

We will not go quietly

As you can tell, I’m getting a bit sick of boomer bashing as the latest millennial blood sport.

 

You can honk your horns all you like

as we drive along the roads we paid for

visiting the health system we paid for

while you were at the schools we paid for

only for you to choose ignorance.

 

You can call us feeble-minded

when your life is just a screen, replicating your ignorance for eternity

and shape-shifting your faults on to anyone but you.

Were as sane as hell

and were not going to take it anymore.

 

We will not be your scapegoat

(or whoever vegans blame)

for every ill in the world.

from a sick planet

to not having a job

that doesnt involve you being rich and famous.

 

We will not be zonked out in front of TVs in nursing homes,

where immigrants shove shit in one end

and wipe it up at the other,

because you dont want to get your hands dirty

while youre waiting for what you think you deserve.

 

We will not sit freezing in the dark

living on bread and vegemite,

because we were structurally re-adjusted

or spent our life nurturing our countrys children,

so that you can have your mess of pottage.

 

We will not be told by politicians

when we can choose to end our life

in this God-forsaken wasteland.

We will decide when we leave

and the manner in which we make our leaving.

 

But, before we leave, well embarrass you

by swearing loudly like sailors

and continuing to have sex

and throwing parties with lots of loud music

because we wont sit in silence.

 

We will not go quietly.